College application Essay

Alex J. Wunrow
September 12, 2008

Pre-face: a creative writing sample that I used during the College application process.

"I have recurring nightmares—that I was loved for who I am. What more can I, nor any other man for that matter, fear more than a woman loving him for the true fiend that inhabits us all. Maybe I am just scared by the way she glances at me from across the room, causing riots deep within, rummaging up emotions I never imagined existed. Is it the way our lack of embrace makes me yearn for the agony of loss just so I may experience the pure ecstasy while it had lasted? Does her complete disdain for me evoke the passion that most couples desire long beyond their lifetimes?

“Why doesn't she see me? I hate her!...and how she can glide through a room without drawing any attention to herself, yet have the eyes of every person there. Can she speak? I cannot once recall hearing her talk. Or is it possible that she transcends communication, and is able to obtain everything simply through her presence? Perhaps she isn't real, and I have just been torturing myself with the suggestion that she is there. How can something that isn't even there stir my emotions in such a way? She has forgotten who I am. She must have—with the way she faintly appears, always seeming to be just beyond reach. Why does she always seem to tease me with the idea of being loved? How can I allow it? Could it be possible that our time has already run out, long before it even began?

“It has.”